A "Weighty" Subject
After reading and commenting on an excellent topic posted by Neil on the subject of society judging people who are over-weight, I am now questioning my own motives to be thin. Is my desire to be thin fueled by societal pressures or my own desire to be healthy? Is it a combination of both...or is it the fear of being obese? And do I fear being obese because it isn't healthy or because in my mind it's unattractive? And the fact that I keep thinking about this makes me wonder if I'm obsessed with weight. And should I feel bad about it if I am? I'm still trying to figure out exactly where I am with it. Three things I know for sure though...I love feeling healthy and light, I love exercise - especially running, and I love it when someone calls me "tiny". (Also, note to self...try to save your blog comments until after work when you have more time to spell check...I'm rolling my eyes at myself....)
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GREAT NEWS! I WON THE LOTTERY! The entry lottery for the St. George Marathon, that is...but I'm almost as excited as if I had won the real lottery. Even better news is that a friend of mine from Washington, DC also drew out. I haven't seen him in over a year and I stumbled across his name when I was looking through the list of participants. It's going to be a great race, but now is time to focus on San Diego. The Rock and Roll marathon is just going to be for fun...I'm not going to go in there all competitive because I'm just not prepared enough and that's ok. It's going to be beautiful and sunny and at SEA LEVEL - yay! I'm hoping that my high altitude training will be of some help to me.
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GREATER NEWS!!!!!! I'm going to SEATTLE for the weekend!!!!!!! Good thing we're leaving the girls at home, or D might not be able to drag me back. I'm kind of afraid of two things - that it won't live up to the memories or... that it will live up to the memories and it will take me 8 months to get over leaving it again. I'm willing to risk it, but it is such a SHORT visit, I won't be able to do everything that I want to do. Also worrisome is the fact that I will be with D and have to keep my love for the city and my friends pretty low-key. He gets so bothered that everytime I talk about Seattle and how things used to be there, I do it in this wistful, longing-for-the-past sort of voice. He wishes I could be as happy here...and I'm trying...but it's just not the same.
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GREAT NEWS! I WON THE LOTTERY! The entry lottery for the St. George Marathon, that is...but I'm almost as excited as if I had won the real lottery. Even better news is that a friend of mine from Washington, DC also drew out. I haven't seen him in over a year and I stumbled across his name when I was looking through the list of participants. It's going to be a great race, but now is time to focus on San Diego. The Rock and Roll marathon is just going to be for fun...I'm not going to go in there all competitive because I'm just not prepared enough and that's ok. It's going to be beautiful and sunny and at SEA LEVEL - yay! I'm hoping that my high altitude training will be of some help to me.
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GREATER NEWS!!!!!! I'm going to SEATTLE for the weekend!!!!!!! Good thing we're leaving the girls at home, or D might not be able to drag me back. I'm kind of afraid of two things - that it won't live up to the memories or... that it will live up to the memories and it will take me 8 months to get over leaving it again. I'm willing to risk it, but it is such a SHORT visit, I won't be able to do everything that I want to do. Also worrisome is the fact that I will be with D and have to keep my love for the city and my friends pretty low-key. He gets so bothered that everytime I talk about Seattle and how things used to be there, I do it in this wistful, longing-for-the-past sort of voice. He wishes I could be as happy here...and I'm trying...but it's just not the same.
posted by Jules - I'm keeping it real at 8:34 PM
6 Comments:
I just read a considerable amount of your blog...... enjoyed it and feel like I'm getting to know you a little better. It's nice.
I just thought I'd let you know with a comment b/c I know you want them. I read about your disappointment when you thought you had one previously only to learn it was just SPAM.
Hopefully this made you perk up when you saw that "1" on your screen, and you're smiling right now as you're reading. If you did and are..... then mission accomplished.
Have a blessed day, Jules.
Chris
Cool about the marathon! Are you ready?
and very interesting what you wrote...
Chris - mission accomplished...big smile
A bit of background...First of all, I'm not a writer...so often I'm pretty boring. I started out writing this blog as an outlet since I was dealing with a lot of emotional stuff (I hate drama, but that's what it was.) I figured it would be a great journal. I let two of my friends from Seattle in on my "secret blog" because they cared and it was a good way to keep each other up to date...the pictures of my house for instance.
Until recently, I didn't venture far from my blog or my friend Michelle's (tinybubblespoems), but one day clicked on a few of her links and realized there was an amazing group of people who blog out there - not the psycho's I kept hearing about on the news in MySpace.com (seriously...every day there seems to be some news story about it...tainted the word "blog" around here...)
I was fascinated by people who could share so much of themselves with strangers. I've visited a bunch of blogs, but am usually pretty intimidated to post...unless there's something that speaks to me....then I speak up...and sometimes a lot. Can't remember how I stumbled upon your blog, but think everything about it is perfectly set up, and mostly, I've been inspired by your honesty and openess. I decided I needed to ditch my reserved style and be more "me".
I didn't think anyone would actually visit my blog, didn't anticipate many comments other than my friends...but happily welcome anyone who has decided to stop by and leave their comments...and I'm considering driving more traffic here...but the jury is still out.
I appreciate your comments - they are welcome - you have a blessed day as well.
Jules
Neil...not really ready for San Diego, but I'll deal with it. Anyone who can run 15 miles can run 26.2. I can't wait, plus a good friend of mine is running it too...I can't wait to see him! We're making a family trip out of it...SeaWorld and the zoo afterwards - hopefully a day at the beach between the race and theme parks.
And yes...I'm still contemplating our conversation yesterday...maybe blogging is free therapy!
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